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This is my personal statement.. Im having a lot of trouble writing it. Please tell me is this topic okay should I change it??? I just did this essay that is why it has a lot of mistakes... Is it sad or boring please be honest

"finding Myself"
I walked into the theater holding my little causin’s hand. She was very excited and
ran into the dark room fascinated to see the big screen that stood before her. She called
out my name and I said “its just the theater jasmin, sit down!” The movie had not even
started and she had me real annoyed. The movie finally started and I take a glance at her
and she sat down quietly intrigued by the big fish she saw on the screen. I then watched
the movie and after notsaying anthing for about half and hour wihtout looking at me
jasmine said “are you okay?” I answered “yes, be quiet watch the movie” then she looked
at me and said “ your not okay, your not happy” I didn’t say anything back to her but i
felt and inmense pain in my chest so painful that tears started to form and I cried
knowing my 4 year old causin was right.
With all my strenght i fought back the tears not wanting Jasmin to see me. But she
wasn’t aware she laughed and giggled without a concern in the world. I myself had many
concerns. My life was filled with anxiety and stress and I sat down while my life passed
before my eyes. I realized i wasn’t happy and wanted to be like Nemo the fish who
despite being unhappy for being taken away from his home he fought back and didn’t let
anyone or anything stand in his way in being reunited with his father. He was a happy
fish, I wanted to be a happy person.
Half way through the movie I found out what made me so miserable. I wasn’t having
fun. I wasn’t enjoying life like a normal teenager was. I was filled with anger for
wasting my life. I realized I was so involved into matters too big for me to understand.
That i was letting life harships stay in the way of my happiness. There I was in the
middle of happy people probably with similar or greater problems than mines but yet
they were enjoying themselves. I realized I wasn’t only hurting myself but i was hurting
those around me. My causin was there filled with joy to be watching a movie that she
had been waiting to see for several days and there i was sharing my misery.
I don’t know how my life became so complicated. I’ve always thought that
everyone should have a child inside. One that comes out whenever you feel pressured by
society or when your feeling like there is no way out. One that haves funa dn watches a
movie and relaxes and for two hours enjoys the movie and doesn’t think of everything
that is going wrong in their life. I had been to busy worrying with all the wrong and the
“I dont deserve this” and didn;t do anything about it. The movie was almost over and I
was still dwelling on how unhappy I was. my little causon tapped me on my lap and I
woke up from that dream that had me thinking how I was living my life as a grownup and
not enjoying the simple things in life.
The fish finally found his father and lived happily ever after and so did I. Such a
simple thing like watching a movie with a little girl gave me the greatest shocks of my
life. The reality check that I needed to come out from wherever I was hiding and live
life. I enjoy my life now and I’ve become the person i always wanted to be. On that
enjoys life and giggles at the movies and shares the same concerns as other people but yet
leaves them at the back of their minds and concentarte on what makes me happy.
Finding nemo was the movie which by the way touched my heart because not only did he
find his father I found myself.